Let me tell you about Wednesday. There was laughter and crying, all within an hour's time frame.
Around 8:30am, I started to feel queasy. I couldn't quite put my finger on why, but none the less, I had to suck it up since I was about to be seen by my fertility doctor. Sure, part of me thought: 'oh em gee, what if I'm magically pregnant.' haha. Well, FYI, that would've been nearly impossible considering I am currently on birth control, and have many factors working against me.
Anyways, the doctor appointment went on, and I got great news! My cysts finally went away from the last appointment two weeks ago, and my now body is fully ready for IVF medications. I was was (and am) so happy! I am patiently but excitedly waiting for my IVF calendar to arrive in my email so that we can get this show on the road. I have never been so excited to get shots. All of this good news made me giddy, excited, and full of laughter.
Me after my doctor appt
A little later, around 9:15am, I had left the doctor with a still-nauseous (but also happy) feeling. I decided that when I got home, I'd make myself some breakfast and take it easy until work. Pretty much within about 30 minutes of being home, things just went terribly wrong. You don't even want to know all the details. All you really should know is that I either had food poisoning or a terrible stomach bug. It.was.bad. For whatever reason, when I throw up, I also cry. It is the weirdest combo ever. I guess I just feel bad for myself.
The throw up and other nasty bodily functions really made me think though: when I am finally preggo, I refuse to complain about getting morning sickness (or whatever else) because it will be so worth it in the end. At least I'll have a baby or babies to look forward to. When I'm sick and not pregnant like I was on Wednesday, it just irritates me and I have a pity part for one.
Me after I realized that my body hated me.
All that being said, I am still sick needing to be at work today. I'm feeling very weak, so this is where today's blog post ends. Say a prayer for me, that my body will overcome this yucky sickness.