Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Decembers Past

Our first Christmas as a married couple, in 2011, I remember thinking, "I am so fat" in this picture below. Now? I WANT TO KICK MYSELF. I was so skinny. Look how pretty I was then! It's just not fair how love can make you gain weight. But, I will say that my hubby and I had a great 2011 together. Our first year of marriage will always have a very special place in my heart. It was all about him and I - no one else!
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December 2012 was also a special time for us; it when we were officially serious about trying to conceive. Little did we know that God had other plans for us. Oh ... to be SO naive! On another note, December 2012 is when I completed my first semester of graduate school.
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December 2013 was hard. I remember a lot of tears. I remember thinking, "we're supposed to be holding our children; not our dogs." But we made the best of it and we drew closer to each other and also to God. December 2013 was the beginning of a revolution for us; it was when we decided we would commit/recommit our lives fully to God. I knew I had to surrender.
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December 2014 has been the brightest and most joyful month out of each December before us. Not only did I graduate with my Master's degree, but I am bearing my husband's child. As of December 16, our baby was 15 weeks along inside my belly. Bearing a child does come with weight gain (obviously), so I will say that I have struggled with feeling beautiful... however the delivery of our healthy baby will make every single pound worth it!

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  1. I love all of these! Isn't it funny how our life takes turns we don't expect? God has a plan for working them out perfectly.

    Congrats again on your masters degree - what an accomplishment!! I am only half way through my graduate degree and a tiny bit jealous of you :P

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  2. Aww I love these! And you know what, you are stunning! You wear pregnancy beautifully. So happy for you!

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  3. You are a beautiful mama to be! When I was single and in my twenties living w/ my best friend Ashley, we both didn't make a lot of $$, so couldn't buy a ton of groceries or go out to eat much...which was kind of sad, but also kind of nice b/c I was super skinny from the forced diet! Haha! I wish I was still that size.

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  4. So fun you have these pictures to look back on, even though they aren't all happy! I love your line about your first year of marriage, it was just the two of you, so special!

    My heart aches for you in your 2013 picture. Our December 2013 was our first married Christmas, so we were all sparkles and joy, but I know so many people suffer during Christmas time. I'm so glad God answered your prayers and next year you'll have a beautiful baby!!!

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  5. I completely know what you mean about gaining weight. We are finding out if our IVF treatment worked on Monday and because of all of the medications and what not I have gained a decent amount. It is hard for me even knowing it is for such an amazing and wonderful blessing. If you ask me, you are looking beautiful! That little belly is the most adorable belly ever. You are just so lucky! What a fun post to see how your life has come over the past 4 years :) Congrats again!

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    1. Just keep trusting in God and he will provide. I know the pain, but if he put the desire in your heart, he will surely provide!!!! You got this!

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    2. You are wonderful! Honestly, thank you so much for being so open about your journey. It has helped me feel more confident in ours. It truly has been one of the most beautiful experiences I think we will ever go through. I am so glad we were blessed enough to experience this medical miracle in our family :) I invited you to my private blog about our IVF process because I think it is great to share this time with others :) Thanks again!

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    3. Oh YAY I am so excited that you invited me to your private blog. I used to have a private blog as well. I ended up finally just opening up on my public blog, and Im glad I did. I had so many people reach out to me who had similar stories!!!! I will check out your private blog now!

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  6. You're getting more beautiful year by year!!! Miss ya!

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  7. Great post! Similar to you, but a year behind, last December was the year we got serious and decided to start trying to have a baby. This December, I find myself in a place similar to where you were in December 2013: I'm so emotional because this was supposed to be our baby's first Christmas. We were at least supposed to be sending out cute holiday pregnancy announcement. That did not pan out, and I'm having a lot of difficulty dealing with the emotions (anger, disappointment, frustration, jealousy) that comes with our situation. Thank you for sharing your journey; I'm sure it's given a lot of people a lot of hope. I know it's done that for me!

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    1. I swear - the only thing that kept me sane and kept hope alive was trusting in God's greater plan. He has something amazing in store for you and your husband!!!! <3 Just keep believing that!

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