Thank you to Pinterest for always making me laugh. Here's a look at my favorite recent funnies. If you LOL too, tell me which one is your favorite. Oh and I'm linking up for What's Hap-Pinning today :)
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
So many emotions. I don't actually expect everyone to read this blog post in it's entirety, but I would be gosh darn proud of whomever does.
21 Day Fix.
I texted my coach on Monday night, after my first full day of doing the 21 Day Fix, and told her that I was on the verge of tears (except, I was actually crying by that point) because I didn't realize it would be so hard. The meal plan, and the workouts. Both were hard. ESPECIALLY the workouts. Yea... the workout was really hard. If I'm being honest, which it appears that I am, then I'm gonna say this: I am not used to weighing 155lbs and bouncing around the house. Don't get me wrong - I've weighed more. When I was preggo, about to deliver, I was 196lbs. That's right... I gained a lot o' weight, thanks to IVF injections. I got a massive supply of progesterone, what can I say? What I'm getting at is that I know what that much weight feels like on my limbs. My knees hurt so bad while preggo. But, I wasn't trying to exercise at that time either.
Doing the 21 Day Fix has made me motivated at times, have a pity party at times (why, oh why, did I eat so much chocolate while preggo?), and want to give up at times. Needless to say, I've been quite emotional. But, I'm trucking along. Let's see how things pan out over the next 17 days.
Because I'm all about sharing random tidbits about myself, one random fact about me is that I will never refer to "infertility" as that - infertility. I always refer to it as, "fertility struggles." I think I am still a little scarred from being diagnosed with Unexplained Infertility back in September 2013. In fact, that stupid term haunts me still. It's on every.single medical record that is out there. ANYways, all of that is beside the point.
When I read Jessah's blog post today, I was getting so emotion. More specifically, when she said, "the sobbing, can’t-catch-your-breath tears and sleepless emotional nights." Y'ALL. I had never been in so much pain in my life waiting for my baby. Looking back, I was definitely in and out of depression (hence why I was on anxiety medication... which is also still on my medical record. In fact, everytime I go to the doctor, for any reason at all, they look at me with concern and ask me if I am doing okay. Um, hello, can't a girl have a past issue with depression and not be judge for it anymore? I have joy now. Thanks to Jesus!). The whole point is... just like Jessah said in her blog post, I will NEVER.EVER.EVER forget that pain. I have 3 physical scars on my body (thanks to my Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy) to always remember that pain associated with fertility struggles. But the good news is that where there is pain, Jesus can heal. And somehow... someway, I just learned to put my faith in Him, and then BAM... He gave me the greatest joy ever. My joy, which also came with 1 physical scar (a scar that I'm super proud of; more on that in a minute) was the day that Jesus brought Kensie Girl in my life. Like I said, where there is pain, healing can begin. And for me, I live with that joy every day. Sometimes I wonder, "should we have named Kensington 'Joy' instead?" But I don't really like that as a name. Again - that's all beside the point. Kensie Girl is my joy. And that, my friends, is the very reason why I am confident Jesus loves me. Because otherwise, there's no way He would give me such a special gift.
Oh! And on that other point, that part about my c-section? Pre-Kensington, I never through a c-section would be in my "plans". I understood that it was a possibility, but I never actually thought that'd be me. But, Jesus has a way of making us so grateful for what we have. Now-a-days, 2.5 months postpartum, I couldn't be more proud of my c-section scar. I mean it. In fact, I have a whole blog post coming your way very soon all about it (with pictures, if you dare to read).
Oh, how I miss blogging. At this very moment, it's 10:58pm and I should be sleeping. I'm dead tired. But, because I lurve blogging so much, I figured I could give myself one good blog post to get these emotions out. Now I feel better. But, please stick with me. I promise that once I can develop a steady routine while Kensie Girl sleeps and naps, I will be around these parts of the WWW more often.
Certain songs these days just make me cry. I think I am just more emotional in general since delivering. Not sure if that's typical or not, but I'm gonna blame it on that. Anyways, the other day I was just cruisin' along in the car and, "You're gonna be" by Reba came on. Immediately tears. But happy tears, I would say. The part where she says, "life has no guarantees, but always loved by me, you're gonna be." Oh yea, and the part about not knowing what scared is until you're a mom. Truth, Kensie Girl. Truth. I live in a state of fear of what could go wrong. But I just try to revert and give it all back to Jesus. Ain't nobody got time to worry. Anywho... for your crying pleasure, please watch and weep.
Monday, August 10, 2015
Pinterest wins again. I found this pin (a no sew headwrap) and decided to give it a whirl. I own a sewing machine and have full intentions of learning how to use it. However, for the time being, I wanted to try this no sew option out. I think it turned out so cute and will be making Kensington a lot more!
What you'll need:
2 pieces of 8.5 x 11 card stock
First, you will be cutting a 6in x 22in form, which will be used to trace onto the fabric. This is the length that the original Pin told me to use, but once you've done it a couple of times like I have, you can eyeball the length to make it longer if you need a larger size for your baby (or for you!). In fact, the one pictured at the bottom is longer than 22in since my daughter has a large noggin. Anyways, the first step is to line up the two pieces of paper (long ways) and tape them together front and back. This will make the length 22in. for the headwrap.
Next, take your scissors and cut the fabric into more of a rounded point in the same area that we cut before. It doesn't have to be perfect. We just don't want it as sharp as it was before when we created the cardstock form.
Now, unfold the fabric form and lay it flat. Fold in each side so the outer edges meet in the middle.
Now, all you have to do is tie a knot. I double knotted mine. And as you can see, it's easiest to use your leg to make the knot.
Friday, August 7, 2015
I got this beauty in a recent Ipsy bag and I have been reaching for it ever since. In the past, I've used eyeshadow to fill in my brows, but this pencil is a life saver. It's so much quicker than the shadows. I also truly believe it's universal like it claims! I love that it's dual sided too: a spoolie on one end, and the pencil on the other.
Don't know why I'm so late to the craze, but I love me some Poshmark. I just bought my first item off there for $13 (this bad boy) and I'm one happy camper. Have you shopped at Poshmark before?
THREE. 21 Day Fix
I'm about to jump on the 21 Day Fix train and am pretty excited. Have any of y'all tried it before? It's all about portion control mixed with a 30 minute exercise each day. Give me your opinions about it! To be honest, I've been starving myself lately and/or only eating once per day to lose weight. I KNOW it's not healthy to do that so that's why I'm looking for an alternative that will kick this baby weight!
FOUR. My Kid
I am a little obsessed with being a mama. And for that reason, I'm counting that in my Friday Favorites. I really want to pray for my friends who are trying to conceive or beat infertility's butt. Please just let me know if you are in need of prayers and I'm there! Just a little reminder: God knows the desires of your heart and will fulfill them in His perfect time. My baby girl is proof of that.
FIVE. Family Photos
Next month, my hubby and I are having our annual anniversary photos... except this time, we'll be featuring our kid on my hip. (Insert happiest cheers EVER). See our anniversary pictures here: first anni, second anni, third anni. Anyways, I am trying to plan out our coordinating outfits and it's making me ultra excited. Does anyone else love having pictures as much as I do? I think we'll try this pose.
Linking up today for Oh hey, Friday!
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
To see Kensie's One Month update, go here. She's already changed so much in 30 days!
I find it hard to remember what life was like before Kensie but I do find myself comparing life in terms of either BK (before Kensie) or AK (after Kensie). I also have a pretty annoying habit of comparing BD (before delivery) or AD (after delivery). These are the strange things that go on in my head, but my life literally revolves around our bundle of joy.
There's no way I would ever wish to have my old life back BK. Anyways, I am one heck of a proud mama to a 2 month old. Sometimes I have to pinch myself. I think, "oh my gosh... I'm a MOM!" That's a big deal. I am Kensington's mama. Like... too bad, so sad, Kensie Girl, you don't get another mama. You are stuck with me.
Weight: 12lbs 4oz.
Hair: She has a cute little bald spot on the back of her head from rubbing it when she sleeps. Still brown. Not a lot of hair, but that's to be expected since her mama didn't have much hair when she was little either.
Clothes: Size 3 month, and some size 3-6 month clothing as well.
Diapers: Size 1.
Sleeping: The struggle is real. Our routine is helping with her sleeping patterns, but she still does what she wants. The other night was a victory. She only woke up twice in the middle of the night. That night, she slept 4.5 hour stretches. We consider that a Skinner Winner!
Eating: She has been on the sensitive formula by Similac because she has major gas issues (aka she farts a LOT). But we're in the process of trying a new kind to see how she does since it's much more cost effective than the name brand. We will see. But, she typically eats 4 ounces every 2-3 hours.
Kensie's favorite things: Kensie really really loves bathtime. Whenever we get out of the bath, she lets out a loud cry and doesn't understand why she can't stay in the bath for hours. She also enjoys when mama touches her nose. She always laughs. Another favorite thing is laying on her back and staring at the ceiling fan.
Mommy's favorite things: I love it when she sleeps. Ha. No, but really... I love rocking her. It's my favorite. There have been many a'nights when I will get emotional rocking her at 3am beacuse she is so tiny and perfect. I just think to myself, "It won't be like this for long." Hey isn't that a Darius Rucker song. Oh I am hopeless. Anyways, I also really love how cute she looks when swaddled. Melt.My.Heart.
Daddy's favorite things: More than anything, I just think he likes to show her off. He is the most proud daddy ever. I know he would've been proud of a son too, but having a daughter has brought out the "giddy" side of him. It's so heartwarming. Look at this adorbz pic of my besties
Mommy's nicknames for Kensie: Doodlebug. Doodle. Doot. Homie. True story: I laughed out loud the first time I called her "Homie." I was talking to her while changing her and was intending to call her Homegirl. Instead, "Homie" came out and it has stuck.
Daddy's nicknames for Kensie: Princess.
New with Kensie: I can't even believe how strong my girl is. She can sit up so well in her Bumbo chair. She also can scoot forward in a crawl-life movement. She is going to be on the move in no time!
New with mommy: I am still rocking 15 extra lbs of baby weight. Not cool. But I fully intend to get up and moving much more now that my incision from c-section has healed. My doc said that between 8-12 weeks postpartum, I won't feel like I just had major surgery. I am 8.5 weeks postpartum now, so I am hoping that I feel 100% soon.
Prayer: Jesus, I pray that you work in me every single day to be the best mommy that I can be. I pray for protection over my fragile, little miracle baby. I pray that she will understand, even a tiny bit, just how loved she is. I pray for nothing but happiness for her. I pray that she will come to know you early in life and follow you all of her days on earth. Please watch over our family and help guide us each and every day. Thank you for blessing us. You are the creator of life and we are indebted to you for trusting us with Kensington. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!!!!