Pregnancy Update + Bunk Beds

I've been meaning to post for two weeks now. Whoops. Time really does get away. A lot has happened in the last two weeks. This may be a long post, so thank you to those who hang tight and read along with my thoughts.

First, I turned 32, wahoo. For my birthday, I got a new minivan (#MomLife) and some AirPods from Ross. Oh and how could I forget: he also bought me a LivePD t-shirt because I'm kinda obsessed with that show. I also celebrated 17 and 18 weeks gestation with the twins. I am getting HUGE. I would be willing to bet that my belly is measuring much further ahead - because like I've said before - there is two of everything inside of me. I find with being pregnant, people say the darndest things. When I was pregnant with Kensington (just one kid), I was constantly being asked, "are you sure it's not twins?" And now that I'm pregnant with twins, I am constantly being told, "you're due in AUGUST? that is a long time away." Haha. The doctor and nurses keep reminding me that not only is this my 3rd pregnancy (therefore I will show much quicker and larger) but I am the exact size that they'd expect me to be with twins.
sweet 18 week belly with two precious babies

My Makena injections are going well. It's basically a boost of progesterone once per week (only 1mL), whereas when we were on PIO (Progesterone In Oil), it was every day (2mL). The thing about Makena and twins is that there is nothing proven whatsoever that these injections help. Furthermore, a cerclage (which I do not have yet) has not be proven successful in twins either. If I'm being honest, I am beginning to feel like such an anomaly. There is no one else out there like me. I'm serious. Find me a mom who had a micropreemie (before 27 weeks gestation) and then got pregnant with twins. You won't find her but if you do, I'd love to be proven wrong.

My frustration only grows when ignorant people reply to Facebook threads that I post. I specifically state that I'm looking to connect with people who are pregnant with twins after a micropreemie pregnancy. People will comment the most ridiculous things: "I had micropreemie twins" or "My situation is opposite: I had twins and then a mircopreemie." I'm like B - THAT IS NOT WHAT I'M ASKING. (Can you sense my frustration?) The fact of the matter is: twins + Makena or a Cerclage are not the same as with a singleton. There are studies out there showing how much Makena + a Cerclage can help singleton pregnancies. The same studies don't prove a thing in twin pregnancies. I am an anomaly. At this point in the pregnancy, we're winging it and the only thing I'm relying on is prayer to get me full term. Truthfully, you won't hear me raving about the injections - you'll hear me raving about how God did this miraculous work in me. The injections are simply to say, "we tried everything and it didn't hurt." Medicine is a GOOD THING and we are thankful to have prayer and medicine assisting us.

To be completely raw, I have had some emotional moments where I wonder the in's and out's of God's plan. "Why couldn't I have these twins sooner (even though I know the answer is simple: NOW is God's perfect timing) - why wait until our last pregnancy, especially after a micropreemie? Was it selfish of me to pray for twins?" As everyone knows, we prayed that both of these perfectly formed embryos would stick around when we had transferred them on December 10, 2018. And miraculously, with answered prayer, Shep and Ruth both stuck! It really does sound like a dream come true. Two boys and two girls to complete our family. Plus, who doesn't think twins sound like such an adventure? But the reality is that I have very weak moments because of Bennett's early arrival and complicated pregnancy which obviously impact my mindset with this twin pregnancy.

All of that being said, there are *zero* complications with my twin pregnancy and both my OBGYN + high risk doc think I'll go very far. It simply doesn't stop the devil from sneaking into my thoughts and planting fear. I work to overcome that every day by repeating Philippians 4:6 aloud constantly and remain steadfast in prayer.

Now onto a more interesting topic (maybe) for y'all. With this twin pregnancy, I am doing everything within my power to just chill and I'm doing a lot of sitting with my legs up. Ross has taken on the role of Mr. Mom in just about every aspect at home. He does it all! This also includes decorating the kids' room as I direct him. However, I still don't even have that much energy for my vision yet. So we've got a pretty plain bedroom for the kids thus far but after Shep and Ruth are born, I will be able to tackle Kensington and Bennett's room. This is our official debut of the kids' bedroom. We got the bed a couple weeks ago and the kids have been obsessed ever since. The main priority was finding them princess + Toy Story bedding so that is one thing that we've got completed.
The transition from co-sleeping to sleeping in their own beds, in their own room, has been a challenge for sure. Mostly for me, if we're being honest. I really do sleep much better when my whole family is in the room together. So, having them in their own rooms + me and Ross temporarily without babies in our room (until the twins arrive) has been different for me.

All of that being said, we've done a lot of musical beds lately. Sometimes the kids sleep in their room the whole night, other times they walk into our room in the middle of the night and we finish the night in our bed, and then some nights, we still co-sleep from the get go and don't even attempt their own room.

The biggest reason for this is pretty simple: on the very first night that the kids slept in their own room, our electricity went off F I V E different times due to high winds outside. It was in that moment that we kicked ourselves for not paying attention to the weather more closely because now, Kensington has trust issues. She does NOT want her night light + sound machine going off in the middle of the night.

On the nights that the kids sleep in their rooms the whole night, it's pretty comical to watch the camera. One time, Kensington threw a stuffed Olaf doll on Bennett (she sleeps on the top bunk + he sleeps on the bottom bunk) to see if he was awake. Another funny thing that often happens is that one of our dogs, Layla, will go in their room to check on the kids and she does this sneezing thing that is sure to wake the kids up. But they both just kinda look at her and then fall back asleep. It definitely helps that the kids have each other in the room together, but it's not a perfect system.

I will say: the sweetest thing ever is watching them crawl out of bed and run straight into our bedroom first thing in the morning. Neither kid looks to see if the other has left their bed yet, but rather, they're out for themselves: first to get to mom and dad gets the best spot on the master bed.

Anyways, regarding the kids bed itself, the thing that we loved about it immediately is that it's very much a toddler-friendly bunk bed. It is NOT the normal height of a bunk bed. It's much shorter, even if it doesn't quite look like it in pictures. We also love the stairs going up to the top bunk. I have zero fears about the kids playing in their room by themselves because of these two things. Their room has become one where we keep their clothes (previously, I kept their clothes in my craft room), where they sleep, and where they play. All of their toys fit perfectly in their room except the play kitchen - which we still have in our living room, but it actually works out great because it gets more use out in the open. It feels nice to utilize an extra room in our house that we previously never used.

There's a million other things I could type right now but I think we'll pause here for now since this is a lot as is. Thanks for sharing in the highs and lows with us!

Texas + Mickey Mouse talk

The goal I had in mind when starting back up with blogging was to post once a week - which isn't much, I know, but it's easy enough for me to commit to for now. Last week I didn't meet that goal but here I am today and back at it!

It's been the same ole, same ole over here. My mind is consumed with this precious twin pregnancy. You'd think having two toddlers would keep me busy enough, but the fact that I am already huge at 15 weeks and feeling so many bodily changes keeps my mind focused on Shep and Millie. I had a dream about them last night and that when they were born, I hadn't ordered their going-home outfits (the horror!). But in fact, I am slowly starting to accumulate matching pink and blue outfits... whew.

I'm spending a lot of my pregnancy doing a whole bunch of nothing. Sitting around a lot (I'm not allowed to exercise) which means watching TV shows and getting on social media. I get bored easily on social media to be honest, so there's been a lot of catching up on my DVR. The most that I do during the week is take both kids to preschool. While they're at school, I try to just sit down and take it easy, but the busy body in me just wants to clean and organize. This pregnancy has really taught me to listen to my body and relax while I have the time. I can't wait to see the twins on ultrasound next week!

Other kid updates: we are getting Kensington and Bennett's new room put together. I should have more updates about that later this month. I am so torn: I don't want to stop cosleeping, but at the same time, I need the space in bed (hello large preggo belly) and the kids really could sleep anywhere and be perfectly fine. I love that they'll be sharing a room too. That puts my mind at ease! We also installed a new camera in their new room and you can see ev.ery.thing. So, I know this is a good move for all of us!

Kensington and Bennett celebrated Texas last week at school. Look at these precious Texas Natives. I especially love that they know where in Texas they live, along with where each of their grandparents live. 
I am so amazed how much both kiddos are growing and learning every day. Kensington is about 36lbs and Bennett is about 27lbs. She can lift him up, which is hilarious and impressive! Both of my babies are obsessed with wearing shoes - specifically boots - they don't just wear them during Texas week (I have to hide their shoes so they don't drag them all out) and their love for Mickey Mouse increases daily. My favorite part about their relationship is how well they entertain each other. It's not always sunshine and roses with a 2 year old and 3 year old, but overall, they are so gentle and playful with each other.  

But speaking of Mickey Mouse, I have to say this: I'VE CHANGED. I have found myself addicted to planning Disney World vacations. I blame my sister-in-law for inviting us to go with them a couple years ago, haha! We first took the kids in 2017 (when Bennett was only 1 year old!) and it changed me. I am officially obsessed with Disney and I'm not even ashamed to say it. Our second trip in 2018 solidified for Ross and I that Disney is such a fun place to take the kids! Our goal both times was just to make sure the kids had fun; and fun they did have! We are super excited to go again in 2020 but we'll only be taking the big kids. The twins will stay back home and we can take them once they're a bit older. Maybe in 2021... I'll get on planning that probably as soon as we get back from our next trip.

Our first two Disney trips as adults, we didn't plan anything really. I didn't even know what a Fast Pass was in 2017, which is kind of funny as I look back. Now that we've been twice in two years, I am starting to learn how things work and I'm also researching all sorts of neat inside things. So, if you have any good tips/tricks/advice for a our upcoming Disney trip, please let me know!